Goeppinger Huette |
Today the East German-Under-Communism-coach I am married to planned a long (over 12 miles) walk/run up, up up, to a hut called the Goeppinger Huette. He reckoned it would take us about three hours to get there, then lunch, then an hour run down to a place where we could take a bus home. We brought along the woman who runs the building here-a very fit woman in her early 50s who has been known to smoke cigarettes as she waits for me to catch up (no joke). She also has a new beau: a policeman in his 30s who looks like he is there to deliver a fake telegram at a bachelorette party; if you get my drift. Apparently he was part of a group of firemen and policemen who came to answer a fire alarm. My point is, she has her act together. My other point is don't be shy about calling for help at the sight of smoke. Can't be too careful...(And yes, ladies, easy; I will try to get a picture with him.)
So it was the usual misery, except this time we clambered over rocks that had a rather steep drop on the other side; but for once this did not bother me. Thomas told me he has been here with Elmar and ski group, and one guy got so freaked out (keep in mind they were in ski boots, carrying skis-terrifying), that he had to be helped.
It has been said by far better runners than I, that a long trek is a metaphor for life: a lot of misery interrupted by bursts of real joy. But in my heightened emotional state today, it seemed absurdly true. Just when you think you have life down, there comes some bullshit up hill portion that you do not want or need or enjoy. I slogged forward however, until directly below me was the blessed hut. The end of suffering, a soft place to hide for an hour, a dispensary of comfort without judgement (two desserts and a hot dog for lunch? hell yes!) And I ran to it like we used to run to each other at airports.
But I could not get there, because the road suddenly became so difficult to negotiate: huge boulders and slippery small ones, and I went from running and whooping with joy, to almost crawling. It was like seeing the object of your love and desire, but not being able to reach him.
Loyal blog readers will know there is a point in every hike when I start to wallow in self pity or lash out at Thomas, depending on my mood. But here's the thing: I always simply take another step. Just like my friends with cancer or aids or the people in Gaza: I slog on. And this thought made me cry. Oh I know what you are thinking: for God's sake have a power bar! you are dehydrated. Don't cry. But sometimes, (as when ACB rode 200 miles on a bike), you are broken a bit open, and realizations come through: namely, that I am surrounded by people who are stronger than I am, people who give me water and chocolate; people who are helping me get to the hut. It occurred to me how often I am treated so very gently in this life; even when I have nothing to offer in return.
And then I sniveled some more.
Then a bit later came a group of beautiful, hippy-ish, monster fit 20 somethings that were somehow connected to the lesbians. Thomas is not often awed, but he was when he saw them, because he had seen them run (not walk) up a very steep hill that was not necessary to take to get to the hut. I cannot express how tough this must have been. They took our same walk, the one that reduced me to quiet tears, but they added a crushing extra run.
Then they start to stretch. ....(See photos). They were pretzels; they were a circus act; they were amaaaaazing. They were so amazing, that two 14 year olds from the next table came over to imitate them, to the guffaws of the assembled. We all: the lesbians, Thomas, the waitress, laughed and laughed at this scene. The 20 somethings were so blessedly fit, so strong, they had just run a long way in the mountains without any special equipment or water or clothing...they were beautiful and young and they just crushed this mountain. And then they did acrobatics for fun.
The lead one was this young woman who was everything I would have wanted in a daughter: strong and kind and brave, with a smile that lights you up if you are lucky enough to see it. After enduring the 14 year old's goofy imitations of her, she finally asked if they would like to learn. And they said YES! you are our coach!
And so she taught them. Instead of shivering in her blanket (I guess the run didn't make her sweat), or gulping liquids, as I was; she patiently taught a bunch of cheeky kids yoga. And the rest of us were treated to the sweetest little moment, high up in the hills.
Ok enough mush. I am very worried about finishing 13.1 miles in the mountains. But maybe I'll manage..or maybe I won't. But I'll show up.
And a final note about running vs life: after lunch, we had a run downhill for an hour with soup and coffee in our bellys, fearlessness in our hearts....and I thought WOW! Life does suck sometimes...But then you get circus acts and wind in your hair! So the ending is great!!! I knew it!!! And then I kid you not, a few 100 meters before the blessed end, I run into a long stretch of mud. (see photo) gross, smelly mud that stopped me me in my tracks.
sigh. xxx
A postscript. One Amy R from San Francisco, CA is claiming to be a member of the Jeki Airstrip Running Club, without any intention of running anywhere near a lion or killing a crocodile.
Ignore her.
Sweaty becomes cold fast in the bergen |
Thomas and Regina made me eat my sauerkraut. |
sniveling away... |
Regina is smoking behind me,,,, |
laughing at the kiddies.... |
mud |
Euphoria pre mud. |